i cant sleep... very troubled... veryy confusing... very upset... very helpless... these should be the factors that cause me to have a sleepless night... n at tis hour... posting my sorrows... i jus dunno y at times when i wan to treat someone good... n they build a shelter in front of me... y does no believe dat in this world dere is still people dat is giving but nv ask for returns... i jus wish to care for people around me... i treat all my frens seriously.. dats the only thing i can say... maybe at times there is still some unhappiness around... but i believe dat it is normal for frens to have unhappiness... all i wish is that my frens can share wif me their sorrows... n oso their happiness.. let me be their listening ears....... i dun treat frens wif motives... but y... y are these kinds of stupid things appearing... n wat really hurts me is... when u... listen to all my sorrows... u can still jealous n not trust me... is already been long that we r together... i jus hope u give me a bit of trust... maybe at times i maybe very wat... but trust me dat i noe my limits.. i m no longer last time me... after ur care n ur love... i become more stronger.... i won chicken out when i faces challenges... credits to u... i m really grateful that when i m wif u... u teaches me alot.. share wif me alot of ur experiences.. working... frens... n lots more... from u... i learnt a lot... seriously... u maybe my bf.. but u act like a big brother dat teach n guide me along in life... u minimizes the probability for me to get obstacles.... i really depend on u... alot... therefore.. alot of things... or... everything.. i will tell u... to get ur advise or just borrow ur ears.. as i have no frens.. (except takky) around me... dat can give me advise or willingly in the night lend me their ears... but... u dun trust me.. nvm... i stop here... i really dunno wat to say le...