very emo... super emo tis few days.. mm... faces some setbacks... haiz... i tink i m a failure... in terms of a girlfriend... a friend... a daughter.. a granddaughter.. a sister... i m a failure... i dunno y... i tried my best... but still dun get the care i deserved... i really dun ask for more... as a girlfriend.. i dunno wat he wants... even though we already been together for 4 yrs... we still quarrel.. he still have doubts wif me... i really dunno how... our thinking is different... but i really cant leave him... as a friend... tink my attitude towards a friend is wrong bah... my friends dat i can really throw my hearts is not wif me... wats wrong... i dunno y... as a daughter... i have tried even harder... i put my family at the top... but my parents... they dun like me..... from the day i was born.... till now... dunno y... most probably becos i m stupid... not a male... i dunno... but for 1 thing i m very sure dat is my dad really hated me... as a granddaughter... i done my best... when my ah ma was sick... i tried my best to do my part... even before warni havent come... i help her change pampers... sometimes me alone... but dunno y... my ah ma seems to like warni more... dunno... dunno... !!!.. my world is sooooo... omg... i want everything to get out of my brain!!!... i cant denied dat i m simply not a perfectionist... i do things to the minimum... but... for them... i done my very very best... even if at last... i will be alone... i accept it... i will learn to be independent... becos... i tried for 19 years... it is still the same..