mmmm... kind of low morale today.. i tink even though i tried to always put a smile on my face... but i really do have my weak side... i m not strong... n i dun wan to be... i really nid a break... or someone i can really rely on... hopefully i really can go overseas alone... to reflect the past things.. n to tink of wat i really wan in the future... mmmm... even though SIP is still a bit far for me to worry abt... i kinda being frightened my fren... she said that during her SIP... she almost cried everyday due to the pple always bully her... mmm... i m quite scare of tis oso... mmmm... haiz... plus.. my health is going from bad to worse... tis haven recovered.. next one already come... loads n loads of worries... jus hope i can die faster... mmm... i wish ah fat can die wif me too.. seems selfish... but.. i dun tink his life is any better oso... hopefully when i die... dere is still pple crying for me.. *depress*