1st day of Ghost Festival..

haiz.. so bored.. nth to do.. finished all my projects.. jus like wat jiaxin said.. after all projects we will feel 'kong xu'.. (tis is wat dat zhuXingXing said when we were yr 1..) haiz.. but still have jap role play to finish.. hope everything will be fine..

N oso today is the 1st day of the Ghost Festival.. me jus accompanied my mum to burn the offerings downstair.. even there is not many pple.. but the burnings was already alot.. think pple burn early bah..

dunno y.. i suddenly emo lei.. 3 yrs have past after my 'ah gong' died.. the memories of him being together wif us were still so fresh.. the memories of him buying those wooden sharpeners for me.. carrying me.. also filling up my water bottle when i m schooling.. cooking fried rice n maggie mee.. till he sick.. cant even get out of the bed.. cant even rmb who r we.. n till he died on his bed.. seriously v fresh.. even though it had been already 3yrs.. n oso his funeral.. we cried n cried.. when his body was put into the coffin.. days of rituals.. till we send him to mandai crementorium.. seeing his coffin slowly pushed forward to the fire.. mm.. hearts broke.. we shouted for his name.. but there is a feeling like nth can be done now.. tis feeling is v v v scary..

hope my 'ah gong' will appear in my dream ONLY.. (due to my 'cowardness' ><'')